Boredom kicking in..

I would have to change my blog title if being stuck here when everyone's away on holiday isn't a good enough reason to blog!

A few rants coming this way soon.. Stay tuned..

I want to go to Liverpool too!

Sigh..

Scream

To suppress the overwhelming desire to step out into my balcony and scream my lungs out..

As much as my mild restrictive lungs will allow at least..

*SCREAM*

For lack of something better to do..

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What are you craving now?
Mom's chicken curry

2. What was the last movie you've watched?
The Bank Job.. Lol

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Hmm.. Mufee for her ability to whip up amazing dishes out of anything.. Nisha, cos I'll need someone to be insane with and Geesh, cos we can make him swim across the sea to buy me a toothbrush and get help..

4. What are you most happy with now?
My closet, my room, my house..

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Buy my mom the car she wants.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yep, I am an eternal optimist

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My watch.. I only have one that works!

8. Why are you wasting your time to do this?
Because anything's better than the bloody eRoCE!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I would suppose so. I'm more likely to confess to the person I trust

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Contagious bubbly-ness, daring, sincere

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Hmm.. Trustworthy, conversationalist, family-oriented, able to handle someone as high-maintenance as me, confident, gives me my space, taller than me:-) just to name a few.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Arrogant, opportunistic, nice-when-they-have-something-to-gain-from-it type.

13. What is your ambition?
To save the world. Must find a cheerleader to save first.

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I would like to know but I'll be perfectly happy not knowing as long as that fault doesn't hurt other people.

15. Have you ever considered the possibility that you may be mentally ill?
Yes, I have.

16. If given a choice, what animal would you be and why?
A sloth cos no one will blame me for hypersomnia and laziness.

17. Which "Friends" character are you most like?
Monica.. The OCD :-) Mufee will explain further.

18. What will you do when someone faints in front of you?
Catch them before they fall..

19. What makes you different?
My views on life and my eyebrow scar..

20. How many times have you lied so far?
None intentionally..

7 people who come to mind (No pressure):
Muf, Prish, Hiru, Nish, Meenu, Mahes, Shanks


I changed 15 btw..

Cloudy skies; No lunar eclipse for me:-(

I set myself up for disappointment. Despite the lack of hype in the scottish media about the eclipse, despite all the warnings about the weather and seeing how cloudy the skies were, I convinced myself that there would at least be a few minutes in the 52-minute period of total lunar eclipse that I would be able to catch a glimpse of the bronze moon.

Sadly, it was not to be. Now I am reduced to looking at live images online. Not how I wanted to watch the eclipse but I suppose something's better than nothing..

Sigh.. Hoping for clear skies on December 21st 2010.

I was kicked... and I am happy :-)

I've had days when little babies have made my day but this was the first time an unborn one had that effect on me.

It kicked me right in the palm as if to say "hands off" and then started fancy acrobatics, determined to give me a hard time listening to its heart beat.

I love O&G.

One of those days..

Its one of those days where you can't answer the question "how was your day?" because you just don't know the answer yourself.

A day when you've:-
Missed your dogs terribly, been a first class idiot, had a lovely conversation with family and close friends, gone over-budget with the groceries, made an awesome mug of coffee, read a novel without engaging in other pressing educational matters, cooked a great dinner, wasted time worrying about things that cannot be changed, watched a glorious sunset and upset someone with callous remarks about their temper.

Mixed feelings.

I like living each day as if it were my last. But, today, I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

Asian parents

It has become apparent to me that an Asian parent's brain is wired differently to any other. They worry about their 20-something year old 'children' as if they were toddlers . They call you to find out if you've sorted out your bank matters, air tickets, gone for lectures, visited your uncle and here's the cherry on the cake, whether you've eaten!

Asian children never grow up in their parents eyes. I suppose its time for us to get used to it.

Despite a lifetime of enduring Asian parenting, I was shocked today when I was asked to dress up warm and be careful when I make my 10-minute walk home because the weather reports had said that it would be terribly cold and windy here.
It felt a little weird coming from people who live in a country ravaged by a two decade long civil war, who have to work in some of the most dangerous parts of the country and drive for 45-minutes across towns prone to bomb explosions everyday.

A tad bit more dangerous than my ten minute walk in the wind, I think. Just a wee bit.

Medical Student Syndrome (ICD - F_ _?)

It is strange how the MSS is not listed under the ICD-10 classification of mental and behavioural disorders.

How could the field of psychiatry ignore the significant number of medical students afflicted by mysterious ear, nose or throat symptoms on their ENT attachments, countless hormonal mood swings during O&G placements, non-existent heart murmurs on cardiology and suspicious tingling and numbness when on the neurology wards. If this is not enough, then surely the bouts of depression and doubts about their own sanity when on psychiatry placements should be evidence enough to recognise this as an illness in medical students. A potentially lethal illness for which there is only one cure-3-day weekends every week!

I love medicine..

Back to real medicine... and studying?

It took a month of psychiatry to convince me to hit the books. Or maybe it was the realization that I would be facing the most important exam of my life in 5 months time. Or maybe it is the thought of being employed in a year and a half with the job description involving saving lives in anything but fine print.
I don't know if I'm more worried about the exams themselves. I don't think so. It feels different. I think I'm terrified that my meagre knowledge of medicine would be insufficient to pull me through fourth year, let alone sustain a career in medicine.

The realization felt like a slap across my face. Maybe that's what I needed to hit the books again.

I feel 10 years older.

Flight of Ideas

Tea

Glasgow

Geesh

Ma bro-tha'

David

London

Muf

Dinner

David's B'day


all in the span of 2 seconds..

Enough Psych! Sadly, I have one more week to go..

Sigh..

A delusion of grandiosity

My patients have superpowers. Or at least they claim to have.

I do not have such delusional beliefs but apparently in some people's dreams, I have the power of teleportation. I will just take that as a sign that they miss me lots. I still love them, delusional as they are. Dreaming about my confessions of affection and compliments that I would probably never utter unless they put a gun to my head.

;-) Miss you too!

Till now, I had nothing to blog about. Keep dreaming, Cakes.
I hope my biggest fan is happy:-P

Sanity

I sentenced myself to 4 days of a life without music, without a laptop and food without Lankan pepper. I do not know what compelled me to torture myself this way. Its a miracle that I survived!

Being inside the white-walled Room 20 with NHS bedsheets and towels during those four cold, gloomy, snowy days would have been difficult even for the most sane person. Add that to having to walk 45mins in the frosty, windy, rainy mornings to the hospital to speak to psych patients all day long and having to walk in the snow back to the white-walled room, you get a recipe for disaster! If I'm not terrified by those patients who have murderous intentions, I'd be depressed about how depressed half the patients are. The only joy there is to derive in that place is in the humour of the staff and the interestingly-dressed manic patients.

Am I still sane? If so, will I remain this way?

Holding on to my sanity.. Desperately..

2008

Its been quite awhile but I still love Kenny G :-)

A flashback of 2007 would be a tad too wordy to write, read or even recollect. That year was probably the best year of my life so far. Full of ups and downs, moments of sheer joy and bouts of almost-depression, exploring places many miles away from home, leaving behind cherished friendships hoping to make more. I realised that 'home' is a state of mind. For the first time I felt like I've left home. Fortunately for me, home is not too far away.

2008 dawned as I watched the breathtaking fireworks in London some of the people I love the most. With each chime of the Big Ben I realised what a big year this was going to be.

I am ready..

Kenny G

I love Kenny G